"And the day came when the risk it took to remain tightly closed in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to BLOOM…This is the Element of Freedom"

-Alicia Keys

06 February 2009

Hey! How did I get back here?

In the beginning of a new year, you have plans. Plans to make certain changes in your life, changes in the way that you handle things or situations, plans to change things about yourself that maybe you don't like so much. For a few weeks, you seem to be making those changes and slowly, you start to ease up on the intensity of making changes and what happens? You find yourself right back where you started from! I really had plans to use my blog as a tool to chart my growth as I head into my 30th year. I started to feel defeated and down as I realized that I had started to slide back into some of my old habits. But you know I have learned over the past 4 years and 8 months of being a mother? You can't beat yourself up. You start where you left off and keep on going. You do it with a smile, even when you feel like NOT SMILING. I think that sometimes you have to slide backwards in order to gain the momentum to keep on going! So, with that being said...I will be posting my Goals for 2009 this weekend. The Mother of All My Goals (the guiding force) is Self-Discipline...Self-Discipline is required in order to stop picking up-putting away-cleaning-organizing-only-to-do-it-all-over-again-the-very-next-day-and-sometimes-again-five-minutes-later (as anyone who shares a house with a small child understands!!!), and take a few minutes for myself to do those things that I always push aside, but are still very important to do for my spirit. So, wish me luck!


  1. Finally a new post has been made...I was getting tired of seeing Obama. :) Just kidding....I am glad you are going to take some time out for yourself more...you deserve it. I love you girl!

  2. I regularly catch myself sighing that there's just not enough time for me...

    Honestly, though, I know that I have to be the one to MAKE the time happen.

    Otherwise, no one else is going to force me!!

    Nice to see you here on the blog-o-sphere!

  3. I am feeling your frustration - with self-discipline. I'm so there. Working every day at saying, "There is NO excuse for it to be like this." Keep working at it! Don't give up... or else I will have to give up, too!


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