I Better Not Get My A$$ Kicked!

Self-Discipline: You have been ignoring me.
Me: I know.

Self-Discipline: You have hurt my feelings.
Me: I know. I'm sorry!

Self-Discipline: It is really for your own good.
Me: You are absolutely right.

Self-Discipline: It will help make you the person that you want to be.
Me: (Sheepishly): I know...but why is it so hard?

Self-Discipline: Because it is the hard stuff that molds you.
Me: (softly): Ok...

Self-Discipline: When you do what is hard for you to do (because you have the self-discipline to do it anyway), remember that this will help mold you & it will teach you what you need to know in order to become the person that you are not yet, but know that you want to become. Ok?
Me: Ok. Thanks for the inspiration.

Self-Discipline: Now. Go do what you know you need to do or I'll kick your ass.
Me: OK...Damn!


So, there you go, another battle with Self-Discipline. It is crazy how it influences every aspect of my life...especially when I am ignoring it. I think about the impact of Self-Discipline on my life, on events in the past & thinking forward to the future, it really makes me aware of where I lacked it in the past and where I want to apply it in the future. What trips me up is the impact it has on a day-to-day basis on my life. It is almost invisible, unless you are paying attention. When you are paying attention, you see where you have a choice in that instant, to practice Self-Discipline when you are tempted to do what you are trying to stop doing (or start doing!), whatever it is that you want to change in your life.

Hey! How did I get back here?

In the beginning of a new year, you have plans. Plans to make certain changes in your life, changes in the way that you handle things or situations, plans to change things about yourself that maybe you don't like so much. For a few weeks, you seem to be making those changes and slowly, you start to ease up on the intensity of making changes and what happens? You find yourself right back where you started from! I really had plans to use my blog as a tool to chart my growth as I head into my 30th year. I started to feel defeated and down as I realized that I had started to slide back into some of my old habits. But you know I have learned over the past 4 years and 8 months of being a mother? You can't beat yourself up. You start where you left off and keep on going. You do it with a smile, even when you feel like NOT SMILING. I think that sometimes you have to slide backwards in order to gain the momentum to keep on going! So, with that being said...I will be posting my Goals for 2009 this weekend. The Mother of All My Goals (the guiding force) is Self-Discipline...Self-Discipline is required in order to stop picking up-putting away-cleaning-organizing-only-to-do-it-all-over-again-the-very-next-day-and-sometimes-again-five-minutes-later (as anyone who shares a house with a small child understands!!!), and take a few minutes for myself to do those things that I always push aside, but are still very important to do for my spirit. So, wish me luck!